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Nov. 14th, 2009 @ 10:29 pm
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Just heard one of my beloved friends has HIV.
Makes me sad. Also makes me want to post special warnings.
This is two in one year, really three cause his partner has it too.
Guys, use condoms if you arent sure of your partners.
If you can, get tested with your partner and wait til you both get clear results. |
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Hand meets skin
Skin vibrates and makes sound
Sound echos and reverberates through our bodies
Our bodies move to the vibration and the sound of the drum
Smiles are exchanged...
Rhythms are created, are changed, die out, and are born again
Fusions of mind body and hands
Friendships are created, lessons taught, rhythms shared
Dum Dum tek Da Dum Dum Tek
Hand meets skin, creates vibrations that help change the world
Happy Shel may the Mother and Father greet you.
May they lay a large feast before your feet.
May I say thank you for your influence and smiles,
and of course your vibration that helped change the world. |
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Worked all night...
Am a bit tired today.
Cleaned the house and did the yard.
I am sorry I did not attend the service last night.
I still thought about Chris and the importance of living each day to its fullest.
So today
I seize my dreams
I hold them to my chest
And all the while I work towards them
I dont have to be anyone
Nor anything other than the things I choose.
That..is the power of the present and future.
Escalator up...to the top floor please...
Cause I can, cause I want to.
That for me is the message of the dead... |
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I was jealous of his spirit at times.
I watched him walk into a shop, get an idea, set up a massage chair outside,
and have all the people on a street go to him. Didnt matter that other stuff was going on, no, that day he was the sun. I stopped trying to work that day. I had to bow to a superior magician.
I loved his hair.
I loved his laugh.
I loved his massage touch.
I gave him credit for trying.
I hated his friend for enabling the drug use. Talked many times of findng said friend over the last year and giving him a blanket party, but..well not worth our time or karma.
I wished I could have fixed it for him.
Realized way early on that one's path and choices are their own.
Was happy to go to NA with him way way back in colleyville, tx days.
I have some things he sold to Carmen a month ago in the store.
Need to find them and put at least one thing on the Santa Muerte.
And..its odd to me...that he is gone. I will miss him.
Another light in the world is extinguished. Another link in the community is gone as well.
I toast to you Rama this night. I will toast again tomorrow night after the service. |
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Jun. 13th, 2009 @ 07:33 am
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I saw something a couple of minutes ago that upset me. Going to write about it for a min.
I was coming home after shift, in uniform, with pistol. I was about two blocks away from my house and I see a girl being restrained by a guy, and then reach over and hit a older women.
Of course I have to get out to see whats up. They stop, and then start answering my questions. The scene was a 15 year old girl, high on bars...I think this is the heavy duty xanax with the four bars on the tab. She is angry with her mom cause her mom saw her come in early in the morning, while on probation, high on drugs. The girl, if breaking her probation gets two years of time. The mom didnt want her home on drugs and violent, yet worried that if she left home, her probation would be violated and so then more trouble.
The girl was high, slurring, and mad. At the same time, to kick a kid out, then need em to stay at home..was confusing.
At a point, I realized we were at an empasse, and called the cops. The dummies waited for the cops, instead of going home to fight in private. This is my neighborhood, these guys were hispanic, so out in someone elses yard they go.
I guess what is bothering me a lot is the way the young girl talked to her mom. She was high, no doubt, but at the same time...man, what a mouth. N word, mofo, all kinds of profanity.
And the girl didnt see the trouble she was about to get into. The girl said she had been clean for two months. She was like I am going down anyway so fuck it. They hadnt even gone back to court for her crime or violation.
And..prescription drug abuse...from people getting hurt then selling their meds for money, to high schoolers dealing and using...crazy.
I left when the cops came. They briefly looked at my pistol and me, and asked why I was there. Told em live two blocks over and was coming home. The police split the two people up. The mom was still bleeding. The girl was still slurring and cussing.
Why are kids getting face, throat, and back of hand tattoos? The only job someone can get with that is either boxer, cook, machinist, maybe prostitute.
At a point I want this world, starting with DFW to elevate. I have seen, met, known some wicked smart people with more common sense in one pinkie then maybe 30 people put together.
I hate seeing younger people blowing it all before they even get started.
One felony...good luck getting a decent job. No GED, no education, no job. Even with a GED these days it can be hard to find a job. I hope it works out for them, but I doubt it. Life is a hard teacher at times.
Well, time to go to bed. All in a good days work. |
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Well..got the deep cleaning and other work done...everything but the wisdom teeth...those can wait til later.
Am two and a half days since my procedure..and am healing up nicely.
A bit tender here and there, but really..no big deal.
Todays project is a front fence for my yard. Time for the dogs to live outside.
Buying black vinyl fence with two swing gates. Bought the material, waiting for the gates to come in, setting posts today. Finally a home project!
Thanks for your good thoughts.
Jun. 3rd, 2009 @ 12:50 pm
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I am a bit nervous tonight as I prepare for early bed.
Tomorrow I go to the dentist for my big dental work.
All my molars are to be pulled, two extractions, and deep cleaning.
Deep cleaning is where they open up your gums and scrape all along the bone.
I expect to be sore for a couple of days. Hopefully they will give me some good painkillers.
After it heals I go to phase two..will talk more about that later.
I know I need this. It has been some years in coming, but well..I am just not a fan of dental work, but who is right?
Anyways...sharing my thoughts and going to bed...Slainte
May. 31st, 2009 @ 11:18 pm
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| » Awesome day off |
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Today was an awesome food day.
Brunch at Dodies...jumbo shrimp peel and eat, oysters ala drago..cooked and drizzled with garlic butter and lemon, their awesome salad, and shrimp fettucine in alfredo sauce..
MMmMMMMMM Gooood
Dinner at my place...ribeyes grilled to perfection and seasoned with spicy adobo, basil leaves, and pineapple. Couple that with mashed potato salad and fresh made guacamole...
This is the best steak of the year so far..
Life is good...really having to fight to get a day off these days..this one was a good one.
Apr. 27th, 2009 @ 12:19 am
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Hi all..doing well...just working a whole lot...but that is a good thing.
Here is a link to something fun...
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Apr. 6th, 2009 @ 04:10 pm
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Today is a day to be thankful.
What are you thankful for?
I am thankful for my wife, for eating dinner at my own house, at a the first
holiday I can remember where I am not somewhere else, friends, family, etc.,
for a new truck, for my job, for our shop, for the ability to look
at the future and actually smile, and actually show where the present
has just gotten better and better this year.
Even though some things of this country are messed up, I am still happy
to be an American, with choices. I am thankful that perhaps we have a
new President who might shake things up, maybe, if we are lucky.
I am thankful that in the coming years, I believe we will see some
real deals on longterm stocks. That fluctuation mixed with courage and some luck
might bring fortune to some.
I am thankful for my friends, the faithful, those that are still around.
Thank you.
My your day be blessed and joyous.
May you find joy in even those moments when things are difficult.
Nov. 27th, 2008 @ 01:22 pm
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All in all things are looking good.
The shop is moving along, more customers coming everyday.
Carmen and the Cubana are doing a great job.
Home..doing alright there too. Two roommates who I enjoy and get along with, that pay their rent.
I have to say I love me some Carmen. My little mexicana rocks and she inspires me. I like that, and seeing her smile.
Family came in from Tyler for a big wedding. They stayed with us. I worked most of the time they were here, but managed to get sunday off, not sleep, and bbq for everyone. Got an interesting business proposition which I am going to try probably next summer. I was real happy to see everyone, and they were happy to see me. With family, least my side, that isnt always the case.
JB scored me a Marion Barber jersey that matched his Romo. Too bad the Cowboys got smacked yesterday.
Work, getting the new job down. Taking me a couple of weeks, but doing well.
I have decided to not be political at work. I think that focusing on the job I do, being positive, will keep me in good stead. Let the anklebiters fight amongst themselves.
The top two folks near me are in a big fight at the moment. I am not going to take sides.
Just let em spend their own energy and time trying to gut each other.
I work a lot this work, will be a seventy hour week. Not bad, but will probably be tired come Saturday.
Nov. 3rd, 2008 @ 09:01 am
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| » Checking in, Doing well |
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Checking in again.
Doing well in a couple of fronts.
Job is rocking, easy, and good.
I am a newly commissioned security officer for the State of Texas.
I get to carry semi automatics and shotguns on duty if required.
I will be promoted to Patrol Supervisor pretty quick. That means taking the company car and gas and going to posts to do inspections, filling in empty posts. Fast, exciting, versatile in experience, and someone elses gas..a plus.
I just bought a new Glock Model 22 .40 cal pistol.
It is the sweetness.
I also bought hydroshocks and Tap .40 cal ammo.
I am to bring my weapon and ammo to the office tomorrow for an inspection,
then should receive my promised raise. Life is good. I also get to take a trip to the uniform store and get my new sam brown belt, and holster.
School...doing ok, not great. I enjoy work these days more than my classes.
I am at that crossroads again, wondering what I really want to do.
I see several pathways I can take. I know that for a couple of you judgemental types, any decision I make wont be good enough, but my parents are passed, and I live for myself and my family now.
For me this whole last four years has been about finding a stable career that makes me
happy. I like where I am at right now. Yes, there is a lot farther to go, but step by step
I climb towards happiness. My current company treats me like a rockstar, and I talked to DPD recruiters last week. We shall see.
The shop is doing great. With me working I finally convinced C to run the shop fulltime, and she is doing an awesome job. We have a new Cubana working with us and she is terrific. They both have brought customers into the store and seem to be happy.
I have finally begun work on my backtaxes. I took two boxes of tax info to my new accountant.
We have a plan, I am receiving things, and what looked super monstrous, should turn out to not be that bad. We will see.
I am going to finish out this semester and maybe take a break. Lots of new stuff is coming and I need to be ready for it. Also need a break from the juggling. Overnites with school the next day is taking a bit to get used to.
Hope everyone is doing well,
Be Well
Sep. 30th, 2008 @ 02:21 am
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I have worked 142.5 hours these last two weeks.
My job loves me, and I cant wait for my big paycheck.
My wife is going to quit the job she has had for four years and
go work at our store fulltime.
I get officer training in another week.
Me, carrying a pistol, in uniform, whod a thought.
Looking at a sigsauer P229, a glock 19, or maybe a tactical 357.
Life is changing again, and I like its new permutation.
Aug. 5th, 2008 @ 01:58 am
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Just had a good day today, a real good day.
I worked, my wife worked, classes happened at my store, and everyone even took a break.
very different from the stress blender of recent days.
Can I say I really like my job? Its super easy, and everyone likes me.
I whistle and sing now. I hope more good days happen this week.
TWould be a good thing.
Jul. 17th, 2008 @ 03:44 am
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As of the end of this Wednesday I will have worked 48 hours.
That is nice. Easy job, appreciated, allowed to work as hard as
I care to. Life is good.
It has been awhile since I have expected a big paycheck, and
have been allowed to work towards that goal.
I am happy, happy when I wake up, when I am at work, and at home.
This is a good feeling.
Jul. 8th, 2008 @ 10:02 am
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Made some changes...so far..seems to work out..
Working a new job...supplementing the savings and shop income..
Realized that sitting in my shop worrying...isnt going to cut it.
Also sitting in another shop worrying about my shop while
trying to sell supplemental services and stuff ...isnt going to cut it.
Nope, I need some straight income for awhile.
I will rest easier knowing for sure my money is coming in.
My shop..has an employee. She can do my sitting. I will go earn for awhile.
I smoked (did great) the first month of my shop...then it seemed like gas went up, economic flags went up, and I started worrying...and when I worry, cant do good sales, sorta just freeze up.
Also, I just took over doing the finances for my house and business...that is a new thing as well.
Carmen needed a break, and by me doing this, we both can focus on goals and keep present with spending. Too easy for me to stick my head in the sand and spend in order to feel good without keeping on eye on the budget.
Keep on keeping on. Life is good.
Jul. 4th, 2008 @ 02:39 am
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Made an A on the first test of the summer
Thinking real hard about dropping stats and taking it traditionally.
Will take my first test and see.
Ever onwards and upwards
Jun. 20th, 2008 @ 05:32 pm
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| » Back in the day... |
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I remember when we had a pagan community here in Dallas..
Do you?
Miss those days sometimes...
Jun. 20th, 2008 @ 03:49 am
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In this heat, with these economic conditions...its so easy to become angry, irritated, short, enraged...
I am going to practice this thing....this whole week, no matter what..I wont fire back.
I wont get angry, and if I am...well, will walk away.
The orisha say ones oshe, life force, head can run hot.
One gives cool water to the situation to bring balance.
I will give myself cool water, physically, and metaphorically this week.
Ashe!
Jun. 15th, 2008 @ 08:03 pm
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| » I wearing white, now receive my elekes....a good day.... |
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Received my first set of elekes today. Elekes are necklaces assigned specific colors according to which orisha they belong to. I have sat on the edge of this religion for a long time. It is cool the journey my little initiation has taken me on so far. Have met a cool priestess, and have reconnected with a spiritual brother of mine. These necklaces are basically designed for protection, known as the warriors. Its the warrior orisha spirits that I am being introduced to.
We made oesha, herb water for the necklaces, done according to divination and in accordance with the number and traditional preferences for the orisha. I now wear Chango, and Oya.
I like the integration of magic, sprituality, work, candles, divination that this system has to offer. It helps with my own spiritual practice, as well as gives me more tools to work with.
So far, the kind of people coming to me are those that need balance, tranquility and grounding in their world. It has been pleasurable meeting people out of balance and helping them get right with themselves, via energy/reiki work, as well as traditional cleanings, smudgings.
I want more of this work. I look to our business growing as well as my clientele. I like the community aspect of this religion and I look to help this grow as well.
Jun. 13th, 2008 @ 05:21 pm
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